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Setting up the Big Wave

What does it take to get somewhere in life, and is it really necessary? I am not apathetic, but the twinge of quite desperation seems like an inescapable spectre, even in the times when I try to "relax" it rears its grey-green head. I'm sure that this feeling will haunt me till I'm old, especially to someone of mediocre talent such as myself. Knowledgeable and somewhat clever, but not consistent enough to amount to anything. I know I'm not alone in this sentiment, millions of others in the world have lived their lives in this manner. Having talents that shine at times, only to find that they're mediocre in the grand scheme. What's it take to escape this whining anxiety? It would be an interesting study to see how much the fear of mediocrity pushes those in the upper ranks of any respective field. If one were to grow up in the U.S among equals, they would understand what this feels like. Success abound but none for you, unless you throw away everything that...

Work as of 4/24-25/10

Today was another hell day at work. I got in at 5:02 pm, two minutes late, and left at exactly 1:45 am. I had a near thirty minute break from 9:47 to 10:15. 4h45m+3h30m=8h15m x 9.0/h= 75.60$ Before I even clocked in, my work day started with a letter that I will now transcribe with descriptive excerpts in parenthesis. I will also type it down to the finest possible detail that I can and will keep the hard copy in case its needed for reference. Andy, (this is written in pen over white out of Will's name) You really need to do something about Saturday nights. If you can't get done what needs to get done I will need to find someone else to work that shift. Every Sunday I get a message from the morning crew stating that things are not getting done on Saturday nights. Here is a list of what was left for me on Sunday morning.... 1 Front counters note wiped down 2 Tables not wiped down 3 Ice cream mix not filled - left empty 4 Front drawers not filled with fries 6 Ho...

Having a journal

Typing all of your thoughts as fast as you can has a theraputic propoerty to it. now ionly if i could type fast and sccurate. and as fast as i could think i would kick osome serious ass in everything. not only arem y thought slinear, but theiry aloso sequential, usually following the format of an outline without needing one. this is the cauwesed by me writing so long ont using wrtiten outlines and iinstead writing off the ltop of myhead. problem is i write even shitteir than i type.